Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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11:25 pm - last day for ice skating
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I went to yoga tonight and then we went ice skating. I am going to sleep well tonight and I might not be able to walk when I get up tomorrow morning.
I had a dream about my father last night but I don't remember what happened. I woke up and I could still see his face and I wanted to talk to him so badly. When I have dreams about him I wake up so sad and I just can't get rid of that feeling for the whole day.
current mood:  pensive
current music: The Cure
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Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
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6:33 pm - almost time for yoga
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I haven't written in such a long time. Sometimes I am not sure how the days and weeks go by so quickly.
I have yoga in an hour. I just joined a gym downtown.
It is so cold here that I don't want to get ready and go back outside. I haven't even warmed up since I got home from work.
I went to two moe. shows in February. I went to Cleveland and Columbus. The Cleveland boy I am madly in love with was at the House of Blues show. We met before it started at the Great Lakes Brewery and the whole night was like torture to me. The show was great and I really did have fun but the whole time he was in the back of my mind and I had to force myself not to be sad.
I have started to date someone so I should just let the Cleveland boy go out of my mind.
It is so fucking cold.
Off to the gym. My friend gets married this Saturday. Things are becoming so freaky and I keep feeling really old. I am only fucking 25.
current mood:  blah
current music: Medeski, Martin and Wood
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Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
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12:02 pm - work work work
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So, I had to take my mother to the emergency room yesterday. That sucked. They still aren't sure what is wrong with her but she is having surgery tomorrow so hopefully everything will be ok after that. They though that maybe the pain she was having is related to what she has to have surgery for. The resident that came in to talk with her when we first arrived yesterday was a student that I knew. He graduated three years ago right after I started working at the medical school. It was kind of weird to have him examine my mom but I guess at least it wasn't me.
My weekend was pretty uneventful. I went to Fat Head's Saturday night and that was fun. They have lots of really good beer and I smoked too many cigarettes. I played strip darts after that and I was winning until we just quit. I was up until 4 or so in the morning. I tried to watch the super bowl Sunday night but I just think football is so boring that I fell asleep after one drink.
current mood:  working
current music: moe.
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Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
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11:07 pm - mmmm.....beer
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I just got back from Rock Bottom at the Waterfront. I try to go there every Wednesday night with a group of friends to listen to this great local band and drink $2 beers. The band is Good Brother Earl and you should visit their website at www.goodbrotherearl.com
That is about it. I have to get my bridesmaid dress fitted tomorrow evening and I am not looking forward to that.
I asked for a raise again today. One of these days they are actually going to give me more money. If not, I really hope I can leave this summer and go and live in Bellingham, WA. I should just do it. I want to eventually end up in Portland, OR so getting to Washington State is a pretty good start.
I started my scrap book today of the moe.cruise I went on last March. It was such a good time.
I tie dyed some socks the other day and they turned out ok. I have another set of three done so tomorrow I will see how they look.
Wow, I have nothing interesting to talk about. One of our friends that was out this evening told me that he had a boyfriend before. I did not know that.
I think I should get to bed since I have to go to work tomorrow. Every day is almost exactly the same. When I am on the bus in the morning heading into Oakland I just want to bang my head against the glass until I am fucking lying there dead in a pool of blood. My life is so fucking monotonous and I can't stand it.
I hate Pittsburgh.
current mood:  drunk
current music: none
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Saturday, January 29th, 2005
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10:34 pm
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It is Saturday night and again I am sitting in my bedroom. I usually go out way more often. I think the weather or something is depressing me.
My friend got fired for calling off of work on Thursday. That really sucks. So, we played nintendo for about five hours today. We made it to world 8 in mario 3 but we finally got frustrated and had to quit. Before all of the nintendo playing we went to the bridal store and she tried on her wedding dress for alterations. She looks absolutely beautiful but it still freaks me out to see her in it. I tried on my bridesmaid dress and I look like a pork chop. The dress is pretty but I have just become so chubby.
I haven't finished planning the bachelorette party and it is coming up pretty soon. I really shouldn't be a slacker about such things.
I think I am going to put my exciting self to bed.
current mood:  depressed
current music: The Allman Brothers
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Friday, January 28th, 2005
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3:30 pm - Friday
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I am so glad that it is Friday. I am currently working right now but I only have about an hour and 20 minutes left.
Wednesday night I went to my friend's house and we drank two bottles of wine and a bunch of vodka. We played old school nintedo until 5 in the morning and then passed out on her couches. She never made it to work the next day and I was two hours late. We played snake rattle and roll, mario one and mario three. It was so fun.
I really want a twix candy bar.
current mood:  tired
current music: Sound Tribe Sector 9
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
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11:34 pm - bad day
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Today was such a long day at work. Oh well. It is well over now but I have to get up soon and do it all over.
Last night all of my friends were watching the Steelers. I didn't dare talk to anyone after the game because I just don't think I can handle that kind of anger.
A friend of mine turned 21 yesterday and I didn't even tell him happy birthday. I wish I could have taken him for a beer or two.
I don't have anything interesting to say. It was fucking cold today.
current mood: okay
current music: Fruit Bats
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Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
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11:48 am - oh the snow
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I wanted to visit a friend today but I don't think I should make the two hour drive in this snow. I remember when I was a kid the place we lived would get three feet of snow at a time and this happened all winter. We were digging out cars but we didn't really go anywhere. My friend and I used to climb on top of cars in the dark and slide down the windshields. I don't know why. It wasn't even that exciting. This same friend is getting married in two months and I am in her wedding. So fucking weird.
My little cat is sitting on my lap and getting in the way of my typing.
I wish I had gone out last night. I got up too early this morning but if I would have consumed large amounts of beer last night I would still be sleeping.
Maybe I will walk up the street and get a book and some lunch.
current mood:  bored
current music: Rolling Stones
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3:23 am - tired, cold and broke
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I can't believe that it is 3:30 in the morning. I fell asleep at 8 tonight with my work shirt on and all of my rings. A friend called an hour ago and now I can't fall back asleep.
I am negative $235 in my bank account right now and it is driving me crazy. I should be used to it by now because I tend to go into the negatives fairly regularly.
I want to move back to Portland, Oregon. It is still just too damn cold to type. And I am in love with a boy in Cleveland.
current mood: cold
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Friday, January 21st, 2005
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6:41 pm - hmmm......
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I just started this thing and I am not really sure what to do. I just kind of heard about it through someone and thought I'd check it out.
My fingers are so cold. I am having trouble typing.
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